Okay so, I've been dating
for about maybe a year or so at this point. I've known Damian for about maybe 5 years or so. We became friends in 2010 while I was a freshman in high school. Since then we hit it off and became really close due to both of us being passionate about cartoons and traditional animation. The reason why I'm talking about this person right now is because, I want anyone who happens to like my artwork to know, that I've only started pursuing my dreams with cartooning again because of her. I was about to give up on it entirely until she encouraged me to keep trying. We both have anxiety issues about our work for a multitude of reasons.
But, maybe even more importantly I'd like anyone who cares about me at all to know this: I'm only ALIVE because of this person.
saved me from myself. Some of you might know I'm an extremely over-sensitive and emotional person. After the summer of 2012, I planned to commit suicide. I began chain smoking again and I was an alcoholic during my time at SVA in New York City (1 semester in 2013) I did drugs to feel again. I was empty. I was dead set on destroying my body and suicide. I almost succeeded in my attempts several times. But, as fate would have it: I did not. I'm still alive. And I am pleased to announce that while I am still suicidal a lot, I have no plans to take my own life anymore. I'm not going to. I've chosen to give life a chance because when I am with Damian, I'm happy. She makes me happy. And I am never usually happy. I still have trouble feeling things at times, and I struggle with depression and a constant anxiety disorder and other things a lot. I wasn't "cured" of my depression, it doesn't work that way. But..because of this person I am willing to LIVE life again. And not in a self-destructive way. I'm working on my artwork again. I'm really TRYING again. That's something I never thought would happen. I was ready to quit and kill myself. I say once again, I'm still here. And I have Damian to thank for that. With all of this being said, there have been MANY rumors spreading about my partner that are NOT true, and they need to be addressed. I won't say specifically who is starting the rumors or what they are because, I DO NOT know all the details. And as far as I know, is JUST as confused about the rumors as I am. But I want this to be VERY, VERY CRYSTAL CLEAR: Damian is NOT a BAD person. She's the nicest and most accepting person I have ever met in my entire life. She has flaws, yes. A lot of them, just like me. But, she has a very good heart. She doesn't wish harm upon ANYONE, even people she happens to dislike. And that goes for me as well. The only specifics I will say about the rumors are this: WE ARE NOT PART OF A HATE-GROUP. It's ridiculous to think that. We don't bash or try to DE-FAME anyone on deviantART. Or ANYONE at ALL for that matter. So please, understand. We respect all people, even if we happen to not like them. We don't want trouble. Damian is a good person. A very good person. And I love her. I love her more than anything. Damian and I, we don't have any good reason to spread hate. And we AREN'T. About anyone, or anything. That's that. It's just fact.